Sophie's Life

For you to hold on to...

2005-01-04T04:46:41Z

Why are my Best friends and I still single? Does anyone know? We wish we did. Please post if you have any ideas....

Tonight is one of those nights
I have no idea what to do with myself...
So I do pathetic things....

I will leave the specific to your imaginations.

However, on a side note...the Spiderman two soundtrack is comparable to sex. Well maybe I take that back....But it is really really good :o) It has tracks by Dashboard, Yellowcard, Jet, Train, some other artists I hadnt heard of but really like, and the wonderful Taking Back Sunday. Good music = Happy Sophie

-I'm silent and waiting
Hoping it won't take long
For my life to become that beautiful love song-

Sigh..but is that reallly what I want right now? Hmmm contemplative subject

So this is the new year

2005-01-02T17:57:09Z

And I don't feel any different...

New years was a lot of fun. Ana had people over her appt. in Boston and meg and kylah came with me. We had a BLAST! Yummy food, yummy drinks and friends. Thats what new years is about....to me anyways. Driving up with the girls was alot of fun we listened to the same songs over and over again....and we still arent tired of them :o) We also ran into two young toll booth guys. hehe and at one rest stop we met a couple of really fun guys and ate lunch with them. Good times good times.

We also had some discussion about men and sex....I won't go into detail about that....but it was a nice discussion.

Later on last night we went to the mall to buy some boyfriends. Unfortunately it was closed so we just took our fine asses to the Casino where we met many friends. It was a good time. The trio is always bound to have a good time :o)

As for New Years resolutions...I'm still not sure I have any. I should...but I don't......

Anyways HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

The Cup is not half empty

2004-12-30T19:29:15Z

I HATE running slumps. Lately I've been sucking at running. Every run I am eager to see if Im not going to suck. However, I just keep sucking :o( Maybe next week will be better. As of now i can't even complete workouts.

Last night Megan and Kylah slept over my new house. It was fun. We had the basement all to outselves and had a good time. I Heart my friends! hehe that is really All I have to say. Tommorrow is New Years and the Trio is headed to Beantown to visit my sister and celebrate the new year. Good Times Good Times. Amanda and Liane mught come too....extra good times!

Oh one more thing. Go out and rent Say Anything with John Cusack. Its amazing and he is amazing.

"I'm looking for a dare to be great situation" -Lloyd Dobler "Say Anything"

Beasting it up in Boston

2004-12-26T19:17:09Z

Christmas was very pleasant. I recieved a nice amount of gifts and money, some of which I will be spending in the next few days :o) I also got a new digital camera which will certainly go to good use. I already recorded two videos on it ( My Cousin playing Violin and my other cousin singing tempted to touch ..SO CUTE).I am now in Boston keeping my sister company. She is working so I'm just sitting in her apartment chilling by myself. Its nice and relaxing though. Last night on the car ride how Ana and I had a really good discussion about alot of stuff. Religion, psycics, Our family and good memories. I cried so much on that ride home, and laughed harder than ever. It was a really nice time. She is one of my favorite people to talk to.

Out discussion on religion kept leading to new things. I even dared to compare my belief in God to Santa Clause...I guess the analogy didn't come out as I had planned in my head. But of course Ana said it in much better words. God, to me, is an answer to the unknown. God, and religion is a comfort for the world. I'm not sure if I beleive, but I know I beleive in something....There is so much going on in my head now, i can't even begin to describe my thoughts..

The city looks beautiful when It snows. After my shower I am just going to walk around and experience it. I was going to run but I had to work out inside instead. Its kind of a bummer because I was looking forward to running to the Charles and around there for awhile. I guess a nice long walk will have to do :o)

"I got shit running through my brain, so intense that I can't explain.." -Ben Folds

The new year is comeing...Jamaica is in less than three months...YEAAAAHHH

I've never felt like this before...

2004-12-23T19:31:24Z

My run (which was supposed to be seven miles) kicked my ass this morning. It turned out to be only five, which is ok i guess. It was warm and really foggy which was cool to run in. But running and Sophie did not seem to find their place very well....hopefully my track workout will go much more smoothly tomorrow(Fingers Crossed!)

Last night I watched this movie called "Saved" It is about a Christian school....it was really good. Definetly my kind of movie. I laughed and of course I cried, because I am cool like that. hehe I also so Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind a couple days ago. OF COURSE it made me cry. It was a really beautiful movie about true love. The kind we all dream about..aaaahh

Now that I live in the basement of this new house I feel like I never want to leave. I go upstairs when my mom needs help and the aid is with my Grandma..and I watch some soap operas and Ellen with my mom as well (quality time). But besides that I just feel like a hermit. Staying in the basement, wasting a bunch of space. It is kinda funny when you picture it...I guess.

It is Christmas Eve Eve folks. Hope you are having more fun than I am. I can't wait till Christmas. No matter what happens or changes I just love that Holiday. More though, I can't wait until Decemeber is OVER! January will hopefully be more uplifting! Although shopping for presents put a very large debt in my bank account...eeeekkk!!!

"Forget December, It won't be better, than I remember it before..."

Forget December

2004-12-22T23:07:33Z

I hate nights like this. Today was an ok day, I had an alright "speed" workout. I put that in quotes because I am not that speedy unfortunately. And last night was awesome because I slept over my Aunts and hung out with my beautiful cousins,but tonight fucken sucks.

Can I describe exactly why I feel like shit? no, But being here is part of the reason. I love my family, but I really don't feel like i belong. My dad has learned how to take care of his mom and wife, and I feel like i just jumped into the picture. Maybe when Ana gets here it will be better, I can only wish....

My Old boss called today and I told her I couldnt work because I am so far away. I think that was a mistake. Olympia hasn't called me yet. I hate being unemployed. Id gladly drive an hour twice a week to work there because I will be in Ledyard to see my friends anyways. Stupid Sophie strikes again.

I need to play my guitar. I haven't really played for a substantial amount of time since the summer. Thats weird. Now that I dont have any vocal music to practice, or homework to do, i Think im gonna work hard to improve my skills. Because right now i suck. I started to get kinda good, but that all went down the drain. gggrrrrrrrr
I NEVER THOUGHT ID SAY THIS BUT I MISS LEDYARD! Well maybe not ledyard....but i miss the people there, and my room there, and Valentinos, and....sigh...I am in need of "War all of the time" at this moment..

I want so badly to believe

2004-12-20T03:54:20Z

Today I was a HUGE waste of space. I threw up about twelve times, and slept about 12 hours. Take this from me....Vodka, GoldSlagger(SP), Champange,beer, and a blunt is not a good combination. From here on out, if I dont have my own alcohol I'm not drinking. Maybe I take that back..hehe. All in all the night was a lot of fun. Maybe I made a mistake, or not a mistake persay. But Maybe i did something dumb. I don't regret it but I'm curious to see where is unfolds from here.....the details will be left to others imaginations

I had so much fun hanging with the Trio. No matter what I think we will always be friends. Even if we are far far away and with different lifestyles...where is my tissue? hehe i am so cheesy.

Ana is not coming home until Christmas Eve, and then leaving The day after Christmas...how shitty is that? I am so lonely in this basement all my myself. I feel a Bridget Jones Diary rendition of "All by myself" coming on.

Ana told me she bought me a Ben Folds CD and a Jeff Buckley one as well. I am excited to add these to my CD collection :o) I love Christmas, but its so weird this year! It just creeped up on me. I can't believe its in less then a week. People were right, it really does change when you go to College...Damn

"And there's this burning like theres always been" -3EB

So this is Christmas

2004-12-18T17:02:41Z

I am home for Christmas.Coming here now is so much easier than it was when i did for Thanksgiving break. I guess its because I knew what to expect. The tree is pretty..i just have to put a few more decorations on it. Overall I am in very very high spirits at the moment. I just checked my GPA online and it is a 3.8..I am certainly not trying to brag, however, I am stoked. I didnt expect to have really high grades in college. Maybe I should start beleiveing in myself more.

This morning I went for a run with my dad. I love those, and I know he does also. Its a nice little bonding time for the both of us. I tihnk it helps keep him sane through everything he goes through....well i am being summoned to the upstairs....I still have so much more to say. But for Now MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :o)

Cheer up emo girl

2004-12-15T04:00:08Z

...today i had a convo with my good friend Richard about finding someone to marry.
weird that we are thinking so far in advance, but seriously how scary is the thought of being alone like you are now for the rest of your life. Love seems like such a beautiful thing and i can't wait till it comes, but what if it never does? hmmm...let me contemplate this some more as I listen to emo music.

...today liane and I stole cups from the DC to play "Mini Beirut" tommorrow nite. Great invention of Jen Adams' part. Props to Jen and Liane :o) The goons are always have a fun time. Haha heres a funny quote of Today
"I have the best immune system in the country!" -is there evidence to back this fact Jen? hehe I love my buddies.

...anyways the Bright Eyes/ Neva Dinova album entitled "One Jug of Wine, Two vessles" is kickass....highly recommended...i give it Five stars. It even made me shed a little tear.

"I'm too scared to notice, the path I chose is focused tight.
Corsshairs on, something's wrong I shouldn't try to try.
And baby it's the beer that's smiling, it ain't me.
Point me at the door 'cause I've been trying to leave."

Exam Week is a beast

2004-12-14T02:38:00Z

...im just taking a little break from my studying. I took my English Final already and it was pretty easy...I just have four more to go and I will be sooo happy! I can't wait till saturday nite because Im going to Uconn to party with the TRIO. I am going to go all out!! Yeaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This saturday night was so much fun. Amanda had some friends come up to visit. We pregamed at Erins (of Course!) and then we went to Phi Kapp. We stayed until there was hardly anyone on the dance floor. You've gotta love it. I hadn't gone out for like two weeks before that so this was a great deal of excitement.

So semester one is coming to and end....here are some thoughts about being at Keene State
I am very lucky to have met such awesome people..(The goons!)
If you manage your time well, college really isn't as hard as everyone says
...Going out to eat and spending money on Alcohol puts a huge dent in your bank account
Running helps keep me sane in the midst of all this chaos
.....There isnt much to do in New Hampshire, but it is still a blast :o)

Before I go I will leave you with a favorite Counting Crows quote of mine..
" I can't remember all the times I've tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass.." Hold on to every memory...

TGIF?

2004-12-10T16:36:52Z

I had my last class this semester today. I guess i'm relieved, but I'm still nervouse in the anticipation of next weeks finals and stuff. I would say I can't wait till it is over so I can go home, but I'm not as excited about the whole going home thing as most people are. Living in my new house is weird and uncomfortable, and I'm like 40 mins. from all my buddies. Worst of all, we probably won't have a Christmas tree this year. As silly as it sounds, that kills me most of all. No Christmas tree! Ah. Also, my sister won't be home till the day of Christmas which is super stinky. I was looking forward to seeing her every day for awhile. I'm not trying to go all 'poor me' on anyone because I dont feel sorry for myself in the least bit. I'm lucky I have somewhere to go over break...and I am looking forward to hanging our with my super cool little cousin.

Anyways.....today I am going Christmas Caroling and I couldnt be more excited. That's one thing i missed alot this year. Last year I caroled almost twice a week! So, it's gonna be really nice to go spread some Holiday Cheer to the old folks :o) Seeing the smiles on their faces and they way they look at your when we sing gives you an undescribable feeling. It keeps you sane and makes you happy for a really long time after.

by the way....is it weird that I really want to be Ariel from the little mermaid?? Not only because of her beautiful voice and cool life, but also because of how beautiful she is...look at that picture of her! Not to mention, Eric is pretty hot for a cartoon.